I was made to yell that once, when my cousin held me by my heels face down behind the couch. I couldn’t take it any more and said what he told me to say. I said (well, I yelled) “Uncle!”
He was 10 years older than me, bigger, stronger and more ruthless. There’s always some shame in defeat, even when the odds are against you. But sometimes you are dangling face-down behind the couch and you can’t breathe, and your choices are limited.
When I took my new job last June I was sure I would still be able to keep doing my local Green blogging, staying on top of events, and even attending with a real film maker to help me. But when you live upside down on the clock, this is much more daunting than it sounds.
Full-time radio jobs are few and far between these days, so I have no idea how long it will last. But I’ve got to give it the love it needs . I’ve also got to give my garden and livestock and relationships and my health what they need. After I’ve done all that, I am spent.
Hanging on an upside down schedule while managing a homestead and keeping health and relationships intact is all I can do at present. I cannot keep up this blog now. I’ve tried for nine months, failed for nine months, and it’s time to throw in the towel-at least for now. I’m calling a time out. Raising the white flag. I’m screaming “Uncle!” behind the couch.
See you around. Take care.